Election Venting/Rambling
Nov. 6th, 2024 09:50 amIn 2016, I got together with people to watch the election results, where I witnessed everyone collectively lose their shit and fall into despair.
Yesterday, we went to another friend's house to watch the election results. We tried to keep it upbeat but as the results started coming in...I started feeling uncomfortable and felt the urge to go home and be alone to follow the rest of the results. I think the others felt the same way because as soon as I said, "I'm going to get going...", almost everyone else decided to follow suit. This usually never happens among this group of friends. I think this time, we wanted to lose our collective shit in the privacy of our own homes.
As I drove home, I felt a deep sense of disappointment in this country seeing who and what they were choosing, in spite of all the horrible things that had been said and done. Yet, I knew I was numbing myself to the deep despair I knew was coming.
Then when I got home, I accidentally locked my car keys inside my car, where I had my laptop, phone, iPad, and even a radio (don't ask--). I was VERY lucky to have my house keys in hand. Otherwise I would have had to wake up my already-sleeping husband so he could let me in. And in another stroke of luck, I was able to find a spare car key and unlock the car. Unfortunately, this was the only time I would feel joy and a huge sense of relief. Part of me wishes/wants it to be a good omen...
As I was going to bed, I checked the latest results and things didn't look good. And still, I held on to a small sliver of hope. This morning however, I checked the New York Times and there was no doubt as to who had won.
This morning, my husband was trying to "look on the bright side" and put a positive spin on the T****/Republican win but it just made me feel worse. I need to grieve...seriously grieve. Maybe taking the day off wasn't a good idea because I'll just be dwelling on all of this but at the same time I don't know how I would have been able to concentrate on work...
We're getting together with a friend who is visiting from out of town later today. That will, if not distract me, make me feel less alone.
Yesterday, we went to another friend's house to watch the election results. We tried to keep it upbeat but as the results started coming in...I started feeling uncomfortable and felt the urge to go home and be alone to follow the rest of the results. I think the others felt the same way because as soon as I said, "I'm going to get going...", almost everyone else decided to follow suit. This usually never happens among this group of friends. I think this time, we wanted to lose our collective shit in the privacy of our own homes.
As I drove home, I felt a deep sense of disappointment in this country seeing who and what they were choosing, in spite of all the horrible things that had been said and done. Yet, I knew I was numbing myself to the deep despair I knew was coming.
Then when I got home, I accidentally locked my car keys inside my car, where I had my laptop, phone, iPad, and even a radio (don't ask--). I was VERY lucky to have my house keys in hand. Otherwise I would have had to wake up my already-sleeping husband so he could let me in. And in another stroke of luck, I was able to find a spare car key and unlock the car. Unfortunately, this was the only time I would feel joy and a huge sense of relief. Part of me wishes/wants it to be a good omen...
As I was going to bed, I checked the latest results and things didn't look good. And still, I held on to a small sliver of hope. This morning however, I checked the New York Times and there was no doubt as to who had won.
This morning, my husband was trying to "look on the bright side" and put a positive spin on the T****/Republican win but it just made me feel worse. I need to grieve...seriously grieve. Maybe taking the day off wasn't a good idea because I'll just be dwelling on all of this but at the same time I don't know how I would have been able to concentrate on work...
We're getting together with a friend who is visiting from out of town later today. That will, if not distract me, make me feel less alone.